December 2010
16 posts
heavy heart.
& i hope you know i’m always here for you. even if it hurts and i still feel fragile myself.
still cry myself to sleep.
certain memories creep up at the most random times but its so coincidental, its scary. & when its there right before me, i can’t bare to look at it or divulge into it. too far removed.
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because i’ve never been shy about this topic and it serves as a daily reminder of what i can do, how far i’ve come, and how much more needs to be done.
In the very beginning of 2010, what i set out to be the perfect ten… i had one main goal in mind: to pay off one of my student loans by the end of the year. Well, here we are December, & i finally got that paid in FULL sign...
the city.
so my last post eons ago was to describe my AMAZING weekend in SF… San Francisco. the “city.” sanfran. nor cal. the city by the bay. call it whatever you will, but i have only previously been once when i was very young and did not recall much of it so it was with much anticipation that I come back here to where so many of my acquaintances & friends are from and really...
this weekend was amazing, but its still got me tired so poop. will write about it later :)
a million 'almosts'
i meant to, i meant to.
so many times i intend to jump on it and spill my mind here but i’m either driving.. at work.. or completely incapable of typing haha. and so all thats left when i do have time.. is empty thoughts. & all the brilliant thoughts that is me… is still in my head haha
shake it off.
sigh. that was a load off my chest. its time to shake it off. get a hold of my self and my bearings. remember that this is just how my life is. at 23, i’m much too old to think my family is otherwise. internalize it & use it to fuel your next endeavors because i refuse to let this lower my standards of personal success.
total fucking bullshit.
im so annoyed right now. its absolutely ridiculous. UGH. last friday was pretty huge for me. i had successfully paid off one of my student loans all by myself. it literally took me one year. one year. all on my own. with a measly paying job at first and i still got by.
as i anxiously checked the direct loan website to see that magical zero in the balance section, my mom started on me quicker...
i'll admit.
my blog posts have been crap lately. of course, except me announcing i’m paying off one of my student loans :) i just can’t find the flow… the ease with which my thoughts come to me with enough clarity and depth for me to put it in writing. its fleeting… flippant… and scattered. recently, whatever the reason may be, things have been coming into focus. i feel focused,...
PLAY HARD, WORK HARDER SPOIL SELF ROTTEN!!!!!!
DJFHSGDFAQ.
a MILLION thoughts racing in my head. or is it just one?
i can’t believe it.. but i should. i do.
I DID IT.
i just scheduled my final loan payment, my loan payoff for one of my student loans. its done. the request has been submitted. come friday, i will have paid off one of my student loans. all on my own. in one year. my first year out of school. the many months of which i poured over a...