January 2011
44 posts
1 down, 11 to go.
JANUARY is over. & what have you done? am i letting days slip by? need to reevaluate some things.
or… is it all in good time…
coachella.
can i handle a wild rumpus of three days of music & dirty dirty? seems so tempting…
update:
i’ve made up my mine. its done, i’m going to coachella this year :D my brother has a vacation home right near it holllllllllllaaaaaaaaaaaa
“I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart
You trick your lovers...”
– muse - undisclosed desires
i miss us.
& even in our last year, with barely any of us around, it was enough. i miss seeing any one of them every day. being able to drive the ten minutes to come over to where they lived, where we all lived, grew up & ran around being care free. oh irvine. i miss the weekly meetings where i could see familiar faces that all combined put together something i gave so much of myself too… i...
man i’m really sad i can’t remember all the passwords to the other ones i had :( haha i want to know what i said…. or do i? probably not.
holy crap.
i found one of my many hidden secret xangas that have not been updated since 2005. reading it all, it was like i was 16-17 again and my life was so consumed with things that don’t matter. six years later, i feel like leaving one last post to let my younger self know, lifes trials and tribulations at the moment, all came out okay :)
“Wouldve came back for you ,
I just needed time, to do what I had to do
caught...”
– drake - paris morton music
on repeat all day long in my head
[taken about two years ago]
i look at this picture and laugh & smile. heheh we, i, have come so far from where we were. & even though we broke up, you are still one of my best friends. & i truly hope, you will be at my understanding one day.
[taken today]
change of plans.
hair bouncy & curly just the way i like it waiting for vwu to come. listening to cee lo green. i love that style of music. old school fun.
vaio needs better quality webcam. just saying.
because girlfriends truly make everything better :) more than any guy can, so who needs them!
“should you wait, and keep doing what you do & hope that in the end, you were...”
when you think tim mcgraw...
just saw Country Strong & it’s an instant favorite!! i love it, the drama, the music, the actors. gwyneth was amazing and she can really sing. she played the part really well. tim mcgraw, aww can i have a husband like you? even in the blind side, he played such a good husband. definite keeper. leighton meester, so prettyyyy & cute. she’s a favorite. and garrett hedlund,...
greeen.
t..a..x.. re..turn… tax … return… TAXX RETURNNNNN!!! ah dear government, its time you give me back all the money you so wrongly took from me this year. thank you!
for all the things i thought i knew
Now I was sitting waiting wishing That you believed in superstitions Then maybe you’d see the signs But Lord knows that this world is cruel And I ain’t the Lord, no I’m just a fool Learning loving somebody don’t make them love you Must I always be waiting waiting on you? Must I always be playing playing your fool? I sing ya songs I dance a dance I gave ya friends all a...
“i have the motto that says whatever you see in your closet that you like, pick...”
– willow smith on life mottos….
i feel like yacking. ugh.
kari-shma:
30 Seconds to Mars | Stronger (Kanye...
just like a pill.
is it even worth it to have all the fun of that high, that floating feeling, the thought that all that matters is right here and now, when the come-down is this bad? this distracting. its like i’m out of focus and things are all hazy. i’m drugged. & all i can think about is getting back on that high.
tipping point.
why do things seem so grand? so big? so monumental lately? i feel like i’m at the edge of something.. something i would love to figure out. hmmm… what is this brewing in my mind… what is out there that i am about to encounter?
there has to be something interesting… or is it all in my head? probably.
im delirious with dreams of moving out.
head is reeling like im 16.
i like it crazy.
as much as i like order & things my way, i realize, what i want, what i really want, is the opposite. my last relationship was so stable, so what i needed, at the time. i may be really late in the game, but i want the kinda chaos relationship haha (ya know, the ridiculous high school one haha). the crazy outta control head over heels what the fuck oh my god relationship. am i cursing myself...